I couldn't be more
thankful for answered prayers!
I've been so quiet
about the progress of every goal I am working and praying for because achieving
such is really hard and tough. Aside from I don't have time to blog or post a
lot of personal matters online, I also don’t want those who hate me to have the
pleasure of seeing me suffer (lol). Up until then that I passed (finalleeeeh!
haha) that I wanted to share my journey of becoming a CIA. Anyway, CIA is the only recognized global certification for internal auditors. I graduated with a degree in Internal Auditing so passing the CIA exams shall follow.
It has been three years when I started my first move in becoming a Certified Internal Auditor (CIA). Looking back, after I graduated last 2014, I enrolled at ExcelCIA Knowledge Institute for my CIA review. I really didn't know yet what I wanted to do in life that time. So due to peer pressure, I joined my friends in the review school. It's exciting at first. We prayed and sought the Lord’s blessing and we were so hopeful that this journey was going to be an easy one.
But wasn’t.
Out of curiosity and confusion, I tried working as an internal auditor, shortly after four months in the review school. I suddenly disregard my CIA goal and develop my auditing skills. Half a year after working, I missed studying and feel a little bit frustrated about my deferred CIA title. See how adventurous and careless am I?
It has been three years when I started my first move in becoming a Certified Internal Auditor (CIA). Looking back, after I graduated last 2014, I enrolled at ExcelCIA Knowledge Institute for my CIA review. I really didn't know yet what I wanted to do in life that time. So due to peer pressure, I joined my friends in the review school. It's exciting at first. We prayed and sought the Lord’s blessing and we were so hopeful that this journey was going to be an easy one.
But wasn’t.
Out of curiosity and confusion, I tried working as an internal auditor, shortly after four months in the review school. I suddenly disregard my CIA goal and develop my auditing skills. Half a year after working, I missed studying and feel a little bit frustrated about my deferred CIA title. See how adventurous and careless am I?
In the CIA exams,
the examinee will be the one to decide on when and where to take the exams.
That's why there's no pressure to me at all. I can take the exam whenever I
wanted and whenever I'm ready. But really, we can never be ready. We can only
prepare.....but never be ready. No matter how much time we allot to study and
pray, there's is still a possibility that we may fail. The agony of passing the
CIA exams grew inside me and the time that passes day by day made me even more
frustrated. That, eventually, made me leave my work after half a year and
devote my time and energy once more in achieving that CIA title.
Parts 1&2
Parts 1 & 2 of
the CIA exams cover the Internal Audit Basics and Internal audit Practices. I
advise that the reviewees study these parts simultaneously since the topics are
interrelated. During my review, we used the Wiley, Hock, and Gleim materials.
From these materials, I find Gleim the most helpful and comprehensive. Their
questionnaires and online test preps are comparable to the questions I encountered during the exams. May konting twists lang.
I tried to review
for eight hours a day, with 15-minute break every hour. I distant myself from
distractions like watching movies, surfing the internet, knitting, etc., which
are the things i love doing the most! Delayed gratification muna every
weekdays.
Discipline. Ito ang
key, hindi lang sa pagda-diet, kundi pati sa pagrereview. After months of
preparing, I was able to finally schedule my exams for the first two parts!
I took Parts 1 & 2 , respectively, and fortunately passed
both.
Part 3
Part 3 covers the
Internal Audit Knowledge Elements. It consists of Parts 1 & 2 matters, Accounting,
Information Technology (IT), and Business Process Management.
I had a hard time
in studying the IT part. I'm half-way there! But passing Part 3 tested my faith
and perseverance. After months of reviewing for Part 3, my story goes like
this: I took the exam. I failed. I took the exam again. I failed again. Yung
feeling na YOU'RE ALMOST THERE, then you realize na ALMOST IS NOT ENOUGH talaga. May eksena pa akong, 'ginawa ko naman lahat, pero bagsak pa din, ano pang gagawin ko sa susunod?' These circumstances broke my heart to bits and pieces. I got depressed and frustrated.
Sumabay pa yung pagkakasakit ko at pagkawala ng boyfriend ko. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally tired. What to do with a
failing career? Failing exam? And failing relationship?
But yeah. That's
life. Pag down na down ka na, dun mo matututunan kumapit sa faith mo. I had
been looking to find my significance, in my work, my actions and my
performance. I think I defined myself by these things. It was crushing when I
failed and incredibly empty when I failed again. Perhaps Jesus wanted me to
rest in His finished work and in the identity I have in Him.
I decided to stop
reviewing for a while and find a job. I was hired by a private real estate
company as an internal auditor. I worked for about a year before deciding to
prepare again for the CIA exams. This time, I surrendered everything in the hands of the Lord.
It was my first anniversary at work when I decided to pursue again my CIA title. Since my office hours is up to 7PM, I tried to manage my time to study at night from 8:30 to 10:00 PM. I did this for a month. It was never easy. Everyday, I got physically and mentally exhausted. Pero ganun talaga eh. Gusto kong pumasa. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Isa pa, mahal ang exam fee. I can't afford to fail this once again. I prayed hard and worked hard. I took a week off at work to focus on my studies. Isang linggo na lang mag-eexam na ako. Fast forward to a day before the exam, wala ng pumapasok sa isip ko. So I just used my remaining time in asking the Lord for wisdom and for His guidance upon me during the exam. Exam day came and yes, prayers really work, I passed. Thank you Lord!
Testimony
In the first part of this blog, I wrote that I'm being quiet about every goal I'm about to achieve. So why am I writing and posting this? This is not to brag, but to show the world how faithful God is to His promise: he will make everything beautiful in His time! And now is my time to become a Certified Internal Auditor! Everything by God's grace and mercy! One day, all our failures and hardships will become part of our lives' greatest testimonies. Keep the faith!
Everything comes to
pass. The day that you pass the exam, people will talk about it, but afterwards
it will be gone like an old song never to be revived. Same is true with
failing. So unless we allow the praises and criticisms of people to define who
we are, passing or failing doesn’t make any difference. But what is important
is the learning that we had during the race and every gem of lessons we take
along the journey. There is always an element of God’s favor. God rewards those
who acknowledge in themselves the need for Him. Yes, we may succeed by our own,
but fulfillment only comes from Him.
"Not that I
have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press
on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and
sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I
do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on
toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in
Christ Jesus" -Philippians 3:12-14 NIV
The process of the
journey is the most important part. I used to think that if God would just
illuminate the path like a runway to show me which way He wanted me to go in
life, then I would be so happy to follow Him. But, I really believe that He makes
life the way it is because He wants us to seek a relationship with Him. That’s
not just part of the process, it’s like an incredibly integral and important
central piece of that puzzle. I look back often at how it was not the way I
wanted that storyline to work out, but how thankful I am that God didn’t answer
the prayers the way I wanted. It’s been a very fun journey because we’ve seen
the Lord answer our prayers differently than we hoped and we’ve also seen Him
very specifically answer exactly what we were praying for just in the nick of
time.
xoxo,
Lou ♥